I just wanted to say that today, I am grateful to be alive.
my temperment and personality have always been the more pessismistic type in regards to my own well being and daily life, it's something I work on, but has always been sort of a joke with anyone who knows me. I can turn it on or off, of course I'm a ton of fun to hang out with at parties and the such, I'm not trying to say I'm 'Debbie Downer'. it's just really when I'm on my own, living my own life that I can be a downer on myself.
the Hubby and I have gone through some incredible changes over the past 6 months...Hubby joining the Air Force, selling or giving away most of our possessions and putting everything we own in a 10'x15' storage facility, quitting a well paying job I've had for over 4 years and throwing myself full time into trying to make a business out of my metalsmithing jewelry skills, going through a short sale on our home, relocating permenantly out of the city and friends I've known for most of my life, living with my mother-in-law while Hubby is in training (shes actually quite wonderful, unlike most mother-in-laws!)....I could go on, but this is a pretty good summery.
what I'm trying to say, is that for one of the first times in my life, in spite of all these life changing things that have occured in the span of a few months, I'm genuinely and absolutely happy!
maybe it was the realization that you are only truely happy and satisfied when you let go of everything that has kept you in your 'safe zone', or maybe it was a little bit of blind faith in my Hubby and myself that we are taking a huge step in our lives together to make both of our lives more enjoyable and create a incredible future for ourselves...I really can't pinpoint one of these things, so it must be a little bit of all of them.
at any rate,
life is right in any case, my heart as open as the sky.
photo you see above is the "Christ of the Abyss", South Keys, Florida
I didn't even know that beautiful statue existed until 4am today when I was randomly browsing the internet.